Unchanged

Everything seems to be changing every now and then.

What we see and feel might not be the same anymore, a cruel reality that we have to face it someday.

Only the sky remains intact and unchanged. It's so close, yet so far away, forever unreachable...

Calming Remedy

Happiness actually can be this simple.

A distinct blue sky, accompanied by occasional breeze.

Have you tried doing the same thing too? If I'm feeling troubled and vexed, I will look at the sky and somehow that eases my pain, pain from all the miseries and unhappiness. The breathtaking sky calms me down and provides me with a great deal of inspirations, thoughts and feelings.

Why is life full of sadness?

From time to time, I tried to find an answer to why people changed? My friends are all moving on, but why am I still dwelling in the past? Is this what my life's all about?

没事找事做？

多管闲事，别人就嫌你没事找事做，嫌你烦。

放长假，懒在家里做自己喜欢做的事，也照样被嫌为什么没去找事做。不然这样好了，天天一直找事做，一直做，做到死为止。人死了就再也不必受这种委屈，一了百了，结束这段时间长期累积下来的痛苦！

这样一来，无话可说了吧？！

SP 1A Semester Exam Results

It's another once a year event.

A moment of truth that instantly determines who are the outstanding ones. I've gotten mine, no A but Bs, C and D. :(

Electrical Technology : B+

Fundamental Mathematics : B+

Thermofluids 1 : B+

Our Nation, Our World : B+

Critical Reasoning Skills : B

Engineering Materials 1 : C

Computer Programming : D

GPA : 2.792

If you're buying 4D, feel free to choose my GPA. "Nice" numbers that start with a 2 and end with a 2. Anyway, I'm quite surprised that I actually passed my Computer Programming, definitely the worst subject for me ever. I seriously wonder is there any leniency or moderation being done in marking Cprog paper? Or was it really a miracle? *lol*

Putting that aside, my results solely reflect how much effort I've put in, putting myself in an utterly terrible situation.

Next semester will be much tougher, with Mechanics 1 and so on, it's time to really buck up...

流逝的岁月

公公和婆婆的家。

从以前的每个礼拜天去一次，到现在的每年农历新年才回去一次。我想了一想，是不是我们太懒惰出门了呢？还是随着时间的流逝而很多事都睁一只眼闭一只眼，不想多理会了？

答案呢，各个心知肚明。只是不想承认而已。

好久好久没有一家人一起去婆婆家了。而去的日子正是星期天。坐同样的巴士，行驶过熟悉的道路，路过熟悉的行人道，每一幕都像在看一场回忆的电影。

终于到了，一进门口便立刻感受到了毫无生气的气息。很快地，看见了公公正在厨房默默地切着面包吃，心里顿时有了伤感。婆婆呢，得了重病所以大多的时间都得躺在床上。眼前的一幕，让我体会到什么是生老病死，它的可怕与残酷。以前都是婆婆公公在爸妈出去做工时照顾我，然而我坏透了，经常拿东西乱丢乱发脾气乱骂！很清楚地记得有一次，我拿夹衣服的往公公的头上扔，想必是有多痛啊。。。

现在回想起来，觉得很惭愧。长大了，我也和家人搬离旧家，就这样十几年没和公公婆婆住。当然，人一旦分离就会聚少离多，彼此之间的浓厚感情也会渐渐地感到生疏。对于养育童年的我的公公婆婆也一样。

我在房间听歌，公公突然走了过来跟我面对面交谈。我有点讶异，也有点不知所措。生疏的程度到达了极点，我都忘了公公的声音，公公与别人讲话的方式。公公是经过世界二次大战的生还者，他告诉我有关当年的往事。

“世界二次大战。日本要你死就死，要你活就活。吃都吃不饱，做工的时候还得留意有没有日军。如果有的话，二话不说就向森林奔去，躲在里面希望不要被发现。可怜的老太婆也不放过，照样拿来强奸！钉你的手掌，一直往你的肚里灌水，灌到你死为止。在橡胶园取橡胶，蚊子满天飞，手掌随意抓一抓便有蚂蚁般多。老板看你做不好就可以赏你一个耳光。”

原来公公以前就对木匠的工作很感兴趣，所以家中都能找到他亲手制作的木家具。已经保留了好多好多年，那可是非常珍贵的哦！

公公和婆婆辛苦了大半辈子，却无法好好享清福。这是多么地惨你知道吗？每当我想起这件事，都会不知觉地感慨万分。虽然育有七个子女，却偏偏不是想象中的幸福，把照顾父母的责任推来推去，孩儿不孝，父母当皮球！

人啊，总要失去了才懂得珍惜，然后责备自己为何没有好好把握当初所剩无几的时间。而我们都很了解时间是非常的宝贵，却偏偏喜欢浪费，选择浪费。

直到最后才发现，失去的，原来不只是时间而已。

Aggrieved & Yet Enduring At The Same Time

Lately, I couldn't care less for things that have been revolving around me.

I believe that everything happens for a reason.

But still, it's getting on my nerves. Questions that kept repeating, on and on, don't you all get bored?! I've got no choice but to bear, endure and tolerate all these nonsense.

You reprimanded me just because I'm not doing it your way. Come on, everyone is different, everyone had their own style, their own way of handling matters. I know you meant well, but honestly sometimes you really pissed me off!

You compared me with others, indicating that I should follow them and be a sensible person. But why? I hate them, no way am I recognising them as my role models!

As for you, you looked down on me at times. Sometimes I really want to wash my hands off you. Think you are better? Act like one!

Seriously, please give me a break!

240 Minutes, Witnessing The Changes

It's been a while since 4E3 had a proper class outing.

From left to right : Edwin, Ivan, PinPin, Me, MH, JieQi, Yikee, Andy (back), Gary, WQ, Shawn and Josh

The number of people arrived was countable - 11 guys and 1 gal. Funnily, 2 of them aren't from our class. So in fact, only 10 out of 38 from the class is here. Thanks to those who came! :)

I don't know what to say, because seriously I don't give a damn anymore. It won't do any good to anyone by forcing, I believe we're all old enough to make our own choices.

I took bus 963 with a few of them, some chatted happily just like before. Especially MH, WQ and Josh. The "debate" that they are doing sounds more like jokes to me, very entertaining and reminiscing! I'm laughing most of the time! =D

Yeah, this is exactly what I miss.

We arrived at Harbourfront Centre and meet up with the rest. I felt kinda sad to see how little of us gathered together.

I always wonder after O Levels, where's all the feeling back then? The familiarity seems to be gone, only strangers and awkwardness. This is something that I don't want to witness with my very own eyes, that's why in the first place I was hesitating whether I should come or not. But I guess I can't avoid this anyway, the changes will definitely take place, and the sooner I see for myself, the lesser the pain it will caused.

Anyway, we move on to Siloso Beach without any further ado. The weather was pretty hot, and guess what are we gonna play? Captain's Ball! Again, one thing that didn't change was my in-activeness. As usual, I failed in being a good player. I couldn't keep up and what awaits me was none other than demoralisation! Just an hour of the game and I'm already dead beat, and the sun had a fun time baking me.

We cool ourselves down and chatted under the shade, before we decided to eat something. The food in Sentosa is too pricey, but I don't think it make any difference when we patronise Carl's Jr at Vivo City. This is just so...PRICEY!

For a first timer like me tasting Carl's Jr bacon burger, it's quite good. But on the other hand, the meal cost a bombing $10.30, instantly burned a big hole in my pocket!

After that we walked around Vivo City before ending this '4 hours / 240 minutes / 14400 seconds' gathering.

Honestly, we should treasure every hour every minute every second, because nobody knows when will we ever meet again. Hopefully, the next time can be better.

SPC Night Cycling

11pm to 8am.

That's the time given for yesterday's night cycling. Perhaps this is my first time taking part in night cycling and it's still within the Ghost Festival period, my mom was kinda worried. But in the end she gave in, although full of reluctance.

Cute little pup with its beloved owner. :)

The starting point of this event is at East Coast Park. True enough, it reminded me in the past when I went there for class outing, which was years ago. Even though I've the experience of going there, but I totally forgot the route! I've decided to use a simple and lazy method - Taxi.

I set off from Admiralty MRT station, took a train all the way to Bedok. After which I took a taxi to East Coast Park and paid the uncle $5.20.

East Coast Park is much wider than I thought, really live up to its name of being the largest park in Singapore.

Ships and vessels at the horizon.

Anyway, the 9 of us were sorted into the last group or the 3rd group, so-called the "leftovers group". Including me, there's Jun Yan and Zhan Yi! Each and everyone of us were given a bike, cost $14 for the renting fees.

It's been ages since I last rode a bike, but I'm glad my basic skills hadn't gone rusty yet.

For the first part we cycled continuously for about an hour or so, passed East Coast Park and Changi. Along the route that we're taking, I saw NS soldiers sitting by the side, looking at us as we cycled past them. Thinking that next few years will be my turn, I wonder how is it going to be like...

Beside the route is our dearest Changi Airport. Planes were taking off at such close distance from us! When will I be the passenger and not a passerby looking at planes taking off? I seriously wonder...

The route along Changi was quite scary in the midnight, I wouldn't come here unless I'm accompanied by groups of people. Next we take a rest at Changi Beach Park. In the meantime, the seniors wanted to bond us even further by playing teamwork game. 9 of us were blindfolded, holding hands together like gays and form one straight line, then slowly move to our destination, which at the end revealed to be a tree! I'm glad nobody videotaped our gayest moment. :)

After that, we move on and reached Changi Village, the time was around 3am+. Surprisingly, the store that sell drinks are still open, even the Nasi Lemak store too! Haha they easily earned quick bucks from us! :)

Slacking is over, we continue to cycle towards Pasir Ris. This time round we didn't stay on tracks, but at the side of the roads with the yellow lines. Not many vehicles were acting as our obstacles, so we rode as fast as we could!

Reaching Pasir Ris was a terrible experience, the uphill tracks nearly rip my legs muscles apart! By the time I reached the top and going downhill, both my legs were numb.

Tampines was next and then Simei, the time reads 5.38am. We rest for an hour, due to everyone being dead tired and exhausted. The Joker Zhan Yi shared his cold jokes, I was laughing my head off! This successfully kept me awake.

So it's around 6.30am in the morning, we head back to East Coast Park. Probably the determination to go home and sleep was strong enough to overpower fatigue, everyone seems to cycle faster than before!

Along the way Thomas's bike seat broke apart, one of the seniors tied a helmet to replace the seat for the time being. The helmet lasted for quite a distance before breaking. *LOL*

East Coast Park was just right in front, but first we've to go through an underground passageway. At this point of time, a loud balloon-burst sound came from nowhere, then we realised the tire from Thomas's bike busted. *WTF* What an unlucky day for him! Poor little bike...

Returned to East Coast Park, just nice its 8am. Many thanks to SPC for organising such a wonderful event! Pure cycling without any restrictions, this is what I meant by freedom! ^^